Yesterday I ended up spending most of the day on the north shore with my sister and her roommate. I left in the early evening to make it to a leaving-Boston-surprise-bowling-party for a friend. The drive should have taken about an hour, but two and a half hours later I finally arrived at the bowling alley.
I almost decided not to go. The past few days I've felt particularly isolated, something I struggled with this summer as well. I don't quite feel at home with my Boston friends (they're great and fun, but feeling at home takes time) and I feel increasingly more disconnected from my Taylor and Grace friends. Last night, going 5mph down the highway, I wanted to just go home and feel sorry for myself.
Instead, mostly because the bowling alley is 5 minutes from my apartment, I went. Even though I was a full hour late, they had just started, so I jumped right in. It was what I needed - a reality check. My community here in Boston will be as strong as I make it to be. It is through my intentional engagement with others, my effort to deepen friendships, that my community will grow. Even though I wish that others would pursue relationship with me, I cannot fault them for not investing more than I have taken the initiative to invest with them.
This whole being an adult thing isn't all fun and games.
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I can so totally identify with the "wishing people would persue friendship" with me as opposed to my feeling like I am chasing after them to be friends. But remember, to have friends, you have to be a friend. The reward WILL come along, don't worry. :)
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